Monday, February 20, 2017

What does success mean to you?

 Okay, I'm mostly talking about success with your health? What constitutes a great week? Making meals ahead of time? Working out every day? Having the perfect week? Losing weight? Maintaining weight?

I was thinking about that while shoveling salmon in my mouth. I can't type, I've been bad. I had cookies again today! AH! FAIL! I didn't eat like I was supposed to. I can't blame it on anyone but myself.

So, how do I fix this? Well, thinking ahead helps. Breakfast is planned out. I don't know what it is about peanut butter, toast, and sliced apples that makes me want to pop out of bed in the morning. It's so savory. Sweet/Salty. It's a perfect mix of crunch with fresh tasting apples...I could go on. While I have been attempting to go back to a more paleo diet, I needed breakfast food fast! Udi's Gluten Free Bread to the rescue.

I did it again, I detoured on topic.

Basically making sure I have my meals planned out for the next week. Then acting on those plans. Such as tonight, I pulled out salmon for tomorrow for lunch. I'll cook it in the morning. (It take 15mins in the broiler) then I am going to chop it up, add a little bit of mayo, cherry tomatoes, green onions, seasonings...This is what gets my blood pumping, appetizing food.
Getting excited about what choices I am making, really helps. A delectable breakfast, protein shake, salmon salad, pumpkin seeds and sliced cucumbers for a snack, then dinner!

I'm trying to work up to exercising again. That's another part of the equation. I haven't had a good balance lately. You can not out exercise a bad diet. That's one part. The other? Making sure you're working to shape what it is you want. Eating health helps you lose weight or maintain. Getting out and exercising, that's what burns fat and turns your squish into a tush.

This is what success looks like.
Have the courage to  persist.
The brains to know what's good food and what's treat food.
The heart to get your booty to the gym. To go for that run. To turn our body into the temple that it is.

Alright, I gotta go feed the other hungry person who lives here.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Anxious Heart

I started going to a women's bible study group here in town recently. The book is called Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow.

Stick with me on this, because I promise it's health related.

I have been feeling under the weather the last few days. Weather changes bring on sinus problems mixed with a minor head cold. It was bad news bears the last two days. It was all I could to keep my eyes open after taking some nyquil. Throat was on fire. Head was pounding.

Anyway, the point is my focus was on how bad I felt. Which naturally led to me making some questionable food choices yesterday. I don't feel well, so all I really want is sugar for energy. It's a backwards way of thinking, but sugar delivers quick, fast energy. Unfortunately it's not the good kind of sugar you get from say fruits and vegetables, the naturally occurring kind, it's the bad kind. The refined, heavily processed chocolate (ALWAYS THE CHOCOLATE) that always sounds good during times like these. I know, how can anyone think of eating at a time like this? Trust me, I can.

What I should be focusing on is, okay, yeah I feel bad, but what can I do to take care of myself? The good things! Rest. Water. Vitamin C. Healthy delicious food like chicken pot pie or chicken noodle soup. I resolved to focus on what was better today.

Salad sounded kind of good, but blek, the choices, what kind of dressing, should I buy regular salad or a kit or??? First world problems for sure. Focus on what's good.

This popped out at me. I saw it on someones intsagram earlier last week, it's whole 30 approved. Which means, NO DAIRY! NO SOY! NO SUGAR! NO GLUTEN!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!

CREAMY RANCH DRESSING!!! I've gone to a mid-westerns salad heaven! I had this over a power greens salad with chicken and cucumbers. So worth it.

I know I've blogged about focus before. Where it is and where it should be. I have to practice this often, because well, I often forget where my focus should be. I am focused on good clean healthy food. What is right is for me to take time and get healthy. What is pure is eating things that aren't going to cause my hormones to go haywire. What is admirable, well...I might have to get back to you on that. Food being admirable? Maybe cage-free chickens? Free roaming cows? Yeah, I can get down with that. Then dance to your food to praise it. HA! Okay, this is really an inside joke. When I get really happy about food, tasty, well seasoned, magnificent food. I dance. I do a little shake with my shoulders and sometimes there's some fist in the air pumping action. I'm not terribly sure when I started doing that, but I imagine it came after the year I went on the SUPREME STRICT DIET! The one where I only ate meat and vegetables and fruit for like a year but I figured out that good food, can be both nutritious and delicious. 

Alright, it's late.
I'm out.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Monday Motivation 20

 Here are some snapshots, quotes, and moments that brought me happiness, joy, and reminded to be healthy. (A new recurring post, check the magic behind the post here.

Feeling pretty good with a start to this week. Got a solid mile in yesterday then walked half a mile. No pain in my knee! However, I had to push it with my cardio, my breathing was more labored then I liked, but I was really hoofing it.

Iron Woman and I are going to sign up for a half in May. How crazy is that? Less than a month out from our Marathon and we've decided to go ahead and start training for another half. I'm making better decisions food wise.

My salad was delicious! Hard boiled eggs with baby tomatoes and sliced carrots. I used Tessemae's Lemon Garlic dressing. It's VERY delicious but high in fat. It is Whole 30 approved if that's something that interests you. If you head over to their website you can buy packs of different condiments. It's worth it if you use a lot of dressing and want the cleanest ingredients.
For breakfast I had egg whites with spinach, an apple, and Paleo Pumpkin Bread with Chocolate chips. (Don't judge me! I had to have a little!)
I had a protein shake and a protein bar for my snacks today. I've been really enjoying the Go Macro Bars, they are high in carbs but clean ingredients, and absolutely delicious for a 'protein' bar. They have other options besides their high protein ones. Every one of them I have tried has been good so far!

This quote has carried me through the last few weeks as well.

I've been very hard on myself lately. Feeling as if I haven't exactly pursuing the right dreams. It takes a reminder, as simple as this, to let us know that, we should enjoy every step of our journey. No matter our age. No matter our weight.

Alright, I really gotta finish up dinner. (Paleo Loaded Sweet Potato Skins!)

Thursday, February 9, 2017

The Pitfall of Bad Decisions

I had leftover pizza for lunch. It was from domino's. Gluten Free chicken bacon ranch. I have to say, Domino's actually has REALLY good gluten free pizza. However, I'm trying to cut down on dairy and reduce my sugar intake, so it wasn't the smartest choice. But work had ordered it especially for me, yesterday for work and I didn't want to let it go to waste.

Well, I had pizza for lunch and guess what? I didn't exactly come home and eat the best thing either. Didn't finish my dinner then followed it up with some chips. Not the healthy kind either. Before I reached for the 3rd handful of chips + salsa, I decided to heat up some water, add lemon and come sit here and talk to you guys.

Again, not trying to lose weight, just try to detox my body from all the sugar I've had lately. Get back to feeling like myself. Another idea I have been kicking around is meatless Mondays. To reduce my animal fat intake. I would like to try it but we'll see how it goes. I'll keep you posted. I need to plan for it though, and that's the biggest thing. Tomorrow I will be sitting down to make my grocery list and go shopping. If you have any ideas, I would love some! Some that involve meatless protein. 

Anyway, back on point. When you make one bad decision. It's almost easy to just keep making them. One thing leads to another, leads to another, so on and so on. So where's my focus? Is it on tasty yet not nutritionally healthy food, or is it on my goals? Well, today, I didn't work out. I ate left over pizza and I had a few handful of chips, and okay, if I'm being honest, I found the last tiny little bit of chocolate left in the house. I ate it.

Is every day perfect? No. But today was progress. I said no to milk and soy filled chocolate all day. I made sure to stay hydrated and I spoke good things to my body.

One day a time. One step at a time.

Alright, sorry to keep it short.Gotta get that beauty sleep ;)

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

I Deserve a Donut

I'm not sure how I came across it but the other day I came across this app in Google Play called I Deserve a Donut and Other Lies That Make You Eat.

The title really cracked me up. I honestly didn't even read through what the app was about. I assumed it was just a silly yes or no game to help you decide if you actually did indeed deserve a donut. Much to my surprise, it wasn't. It's actually a wonderful Christian Weight Loss App for people, like me, who eat due to emotions and lies that I sometimes tell myself to make me eat. Mostly, it's the emotions.

You click on one of the tabs below the title, and go from there. Do you know how hard it is to come home and not automatically eat chocolate? When did I start needing desert every night? I'm telling you, I'm not a happy camper because I am doing my best to stay strong and not go into the kitchen to scrounge something up.
Instead, I'm eating hearty Paleo Beef Stew, it's actually quite comforting. But it's not sweet and it's not chocolate.

I was overwhelmed from work (Honestly though, who isn't?) and REALLY wanted something sweet. Okay but why? I go to the emotions that make you eat tab.

Funny title, tough emotions. (These are just a few examples there are more.) From here you pick whatever emotion might make you think, 'hmm, cramming a whole pizza into my mouth sounds like a fantastic idea right now!' and read what you need to work through. There are questions, and things you might need to accept to help recover from the emotion, potentially things you might need to confess, as well as bible verses to help work through said emotion that you are struggling with. The one thing I will point out is that it seems directed toward women, which is fine, but if you're a dude, maybe not completely the app for you.

I also learned in doing research for tonight's post, I learned that there's actually a book that you can order for this too! I found it for less than $10 over at Barnes and Noble.

We all need help sometimes. Probably more often than we like to admit. I'm glad my laptop is broken, because it's forced me to come into the computer. Sit down and think about what I am eating as well as look at my goal quotes.

I think I'll keep adding quotes to the wall until I achieve everything I want to achieve, or feel the need to focus on something else.

For now, I am signing off on this Wordy Wednesday to relax and drink some hot tea.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Goals, Goals, Goals

I did pretty good today. I had a few cookies, but didn't over do it. Had 5 meals. All with healthy carbs and protein. I feel good.  I didn't reach for the cookies when I got home...thought about it, but didn't.

For now, I want to tell you my goals.

First things first. I've gone back to lifting, wawho! Here's the current plan I am attempting. I am basically just doing the exercises when I can not on a completely dedicated 4 days a week like this one calls for. It is called The Bizzy Diet 21-Day Fitness Plan.   The workouts just seem straight forward, wasn't going to take me hours at the gym and I can modify them to fit my schedule. It comes complete with a Free 6 page E-book! The E-book includes a shopping list, meal plan, it does suggest supplements (but for now I won't use that.) Then it takes you through a brief description of the exercises. I'll keep you posted on my progress. Not looking to drop weight, as I don't necessarily need to, just need to stop eating crap, get back to the gym, and most importantly FEEL BETTER!

Iron Woman and I are also setting our sights on a half marathon the weekend before the Murph. Gotta love goals! One right after the other! For now, keeping them short distance goals and will build from there.

While I didn't exactly get a workout in on this exercise Tuesday, I did get quite a bit of cleaning done around the house. That also feels good.

I'll get into this later, but I really believe in a 3 pronged approach to health and fitness. To live a healthy life you need to have a good balance of food, fitness, and faith. (If you're not spiritual or religious, I would say mental and emotional health fall under the faith category. You have to some form of faith, whether it's in your goals, yourself, it takes faith to believe you will get these things done.) That is why I blog about my struggles. Whether it's stress, depression/anxiety, heading back to church, and getting my butt back to the gym, to me, all these things equal a healthy life.

Alright, I gotta finish up dinner (slow roasted pork, with spring vegetables ((a girl can dream of nicer weather)) and sweet potato chips.)
Blessings Friends,

Monday, February 6, 2017

I Won't Back Down

Thought I disappeared off the face of the earth? Well, I kind of felt like I did. I was under some massive stress last week. It was all I could do just to get through the week let alone type something out.

The thing is, I have a very all or nothing personality. Sometimes that's good...sometimes that's bad. Last week, between stress and hormones my eating habits were horrid. I was literally spooning peanut butter out of a jar with a chocolate bar. Not good.

It makes me feel like a failure because I'm supposed to be operating a healthy eating habits and fitness blog and I let my emotions and cravings get the better of me. Friday night was kind of the tipping point I guess. I came home in a foul mood and started crying.

In that moment though I decided I am NOT going to let this stress get the best of me. I will overcome. I will not be beaten down any longer.

My schedule is evening out a little more with work, still crazy up and down schedule changes as I continue to market and find odd jobs, but things are starting to level out. That helps.

Every little bit helps. Today, for the first time in a long time, I was able to get my meals prepped and ready for tomorrow. I am excited. I made VERY good choices when I went grocery shopping today. I didn't even buy more chocolate, since I ate it all last week.

Not kidding. All of it. 

We do have some left over cookies from the super bowl, allergen friendly but I didn't eat 5 of them today, so I'm going to call that progress, considering last weekend I finished a pan of 3 days. See...bad.

For now, I am going back to a heavy paleo diet, since I always feel better when I eat as clean as possible. Slowly cutting back on sugar. I've also set my sights on the Memorial Day Murph this year. This will be my 3rd year participating in the event, and I WILL do it with the weight vest. I've decided my new motto is 'Watch my comeback', I'm going to kill it. Chin up. God is with me. Rejoice.

What's your comeback story?

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Blog Life

I struggled with what to post tonight. So tonight's post will be short and sweet. Especially since, I'm getting back into the swing of blogging daily (Yippee!)

At some point I want to talk about our actual infertility journey, what our timeline is, and what infertility is like for the guys. Trust me, it looks a little different, depending on your guy.
I also want to let you know I signed up for PCOS healthy eating challenge. It starts on Feb 10th. I'm starting to do better with my diet, so much so that I took 5lbs off after the marathon. It's only been a week and half, but it's still off!
I got back to the gym today. I downloaded the BodySpace app again, found a lifting program. Funny enough, day 1? Jogging. 20 minutes on the treadmill. I also added in 3-30 second planks, 3 sets of 30 push-ups, 3 sets of 30 second wall sits and then 2 sets of a standing ab-side bend with dumbbells. I didn't want to go crazy as I'm supposed to still be easing back into stuff. I thought this was a good first start.

And lastly, kind of whine, because of the new blogger layout. I don't read other people's blogs as often, because it goes immediately into my blogger space. I'm sure there's a way to change that, that I just haven't figured out yet, but I promise I'm not ignoring you! I just can't see you!  If you go to the right side of the screen and look to the far right, scroll until you see Blog Roll, those are all the blogs I follow! There's quite a few, but I promise they are all amazing. Everything from marriage tips, infertility, running, PCOS life, food, and a random tell all by my friend.

Okay...well...maybe it doesn't have all of them...I'll have to fix that too!

Anyway...for's bedtime.

Thanks friends,

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Here's to the Risers

Do ever feel like you are just failing? Especially at your diet. You're trying really hard to be good but then someone brings doughnuts to work? Or you decided one drink out with friends can't be bad so then it leads to 3 drinks AND fries?

You're not alone. I can't tell you how many times I've tried to cut out dairy and soy completely. I can't tell you how many times I've tried to give up sugar. It's a fact of life though. We fall, we get up. We fall, we get up. We will rise again. Just because you fail, doesn't make you a failure. I thought today on this Wordy Wednesday that I might leave you with some quotes to help you think about how success is built.

Every time we fail, every time we fall, we have a chance to rise again. Here are to the risers. Who keep getting back up.

(Riser ~ Dierks Bentley)

(Rise ~ Katy Perry)

I really fell in love with the Phoenix quotes. Especially since this marathon in Phoenix almost beat me. Tomorrow I will rise again and workout. I will lift weights and I will run again. I will run another marathon. One where I won't lose the contents of my stomach and beat my time. But I will run.

Alright off to bed,

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Post Marathon Recovery

I wanted to pop in for an Exercise Tuesday post. Immediately post marathon Iron Woman and I each took an ice bath.
Ice baths are one of the craziest good weird things I've ever experienced. It was frigid cold. I could hardly stand it, but it literally only took 5 seconds when I placed my back in the ice, before I felt this wave of heat that felt so good throughout my body. The point of an ice bath is so vasoconstrict your blood flow to help with the abuse and pounding that I had placed on my body for 5+ hours.

"The ice bath is thought to constrict blood vessels, flush waste products and reduce swelling and tissue breakdown. Subsequently, as the tissue warms and the increased blood flow speeds circulation, the healing process is jump-started. The advantage of an ice bath submersion is that a large area of intertwined musculature can be treated, rather than limiting the cold therapy to a concentrated area with a localized ice pack." -Andy Schmltz 8 Ice Bath Dos and Don'ts 

I believe the ice bath is what helped cut down on initial soreness. We ate a good healthy meal for dinner but, we did celebrate a little with some wine. Not to much, because we were exhausted, but we toasted to our success of marking something off our bucket list.

If you're not runner you might not have heard of Hal Higdon. Hal Higdon is, I would say, somewhat famous in the running community. He has a very popular and very successful program for walk running your first half marathon. It's a great program and if you are thinking of running a half, I highly suggest reading up on it.
Hal recommends that for every hour of running your do, that you take that much time off from any exercise activity. On his website he also recommends what he calls Zero Week, which is where you've officially completed your training and now you need to rest and recharge. 

Free bird, Iron Woman, and I haven't really done in the way of exercise in the last 9 days. I've done two yoga sessions through YouTube. I love Yoga with Adriene, if you are looking into some light exercise or are interested in Yoga, check out her channel.

She has a range of videos to help with all levels of fitness. I will want to run again soon, if my blistered and dead toenail on my big toe will let me. There was...drainage today, EW! I had a dream this morning about running with Iron Woman. Boy did it feel good. I love what running does for me. I'm also looking forward to hitting the weighs again too. I'll be looking at programs to incorporate and start soon.

The biggest thing is not letting the post race blues get you. It's a real thing. Once you complete a goal you kind of wander aimlessly through your next phase and sometimes stop altogether. I'll want to do another Memorial Day Murph. I will run a 5k next Sunday, with Iron Woman. Not sure I'll register for the race yet or not, but I will run with her. I would also love to complete a Tough Mudder this summer. I won't be down for long, that's for sure ;)

This time I want to be smarter about training and diet though. As much as I buckled down, I still felt as if I could have done better. That's the point though isn't it? Keep trying till you find success.

(photo credit in photo)

Alright readers, I am off to bed. I hope whatever you are doing whether it's exercise, diet, or mindful meditation I hope you are well.